Illuminate

17.02.17

I have lost myself
In everyone
Absorbing
What you could not
I have died
with your shadows
Dispersed inside me

I consumed the poison
Before remembering
How to access the source
Who draws out
the toxins
[without receiving
or deflecting them]
To transform
Black that even night
Refuses --
To light
Embracing darkness
Day knows only as
Separate from itself,
Shade and hiding
Places for secrets

I go now
Not to hide
But to unbury,
Unveil my
Self
Before the stone
Has been set upon
the grave
Containing my body
Decomposing
All but entirely
Covered with dirt

I am no longer
Able to accommodate
Death as a companion
Denying
The Source

I run from
the grave
Gravity not heavy
Lifts me

Is this Resurrection?
Maybe --
This is more
than runner's high --
to Know
Where I go
without having to know

I check my compass
Only to make certain
that I am 
Directed
To and not away from
the One who can
Hold the Many
Shadows and still
Remain brilliant

I run away
To run
To life

We will
Know each other
Again

-- Mary Anne Stewart, completed
Feb. 22, 2017